6w4d

So yesterday afternoon I went to my first prenatal appointment with my family doctor. She was so excited that I was pregnant, because my sister is also pregnant right now, and because she knows how much I have been trying, and that it happened so quick with clomid.

She told me that my first US would be a while from now, unless I wanted an early one, which I jumped on in 2.2 seconds. I told her that I wanted one for piece of mind, and to rule out the chance for multiples.

They only have dopplers at the doctors office, so she would have to send a request to the hospital for the US. She is asking one for 3-4 weeks from now.....seems SOOOO far away to be honest! I have a feeling that the first 12 weeks of pregnancy are extremely slow for everyone. 

I am still waiting to hear back from the Midwives. They did tell me it would be 2 weeks, which means October 9, as the 8 was a holiday, but nothing yet. 

Sigh.....more waiting.

I got a bit of a scare tonight and it is making me very nervous. I went to the bathroom, and there was some brown spotting/mucous in my underwear. Nothing when I wiped. I am having no cramping. This is how my miscarriage started. I am not sure how I would be able to handle another miscarriage. It would hurt me so much.

My doctor told me that if there is any bleeding to call her. If by Thursday morning there is nothing else, then I think I will be ok. If there is more, then I am going to call her. I WILL NOT go to the ER again. That was one of the most horrible experiences of my life and I am not putting myself through that again.....ugh!

Keeping my fingers crossed and high hopes

Overdue Update

I have been a bad blogger, and have not been able to find the time to sit and write. It probably doesn't help that my computer has been in for repair for a week now UGH!! but that is another story.

Now for my TTC update.
For about just over a week now, while at work I have been feeling just... off.
At work, I have been feeling a little sick. Not like I was going to vomit or anything, but just not well. My heartburn was also worse than normal.

By the time I get home from work (after working 12 hours) I used to be able to stay up a good 2 hours before going to bed. Lately, I get home and within 45 minutes I am crashing on the couch. I go to bed, and can only sleep for 2 hours at a time, then up for 30-45 minutes, then sleep for another 2 hours. This was really making working 12 hours difficult.

On CD27 - 12dpo, my BBT temp plummeted from 36.87 to 36.48, and below the coverline. The next day the temp raised very very slightly, and my CM was tinged brown. At this point I accepted that my first cycle on clomid was a failure.

On CD29 - 14dpo, the day before AF was due, my temperature jumped right back up to 36.89. I didn't have any of my normal AF symptoms, like cramping, so I thought I would use a cheapie to test.

The test was very faint, but the line appeared right away.
I got dressed and drove to Shoppers immediately to get a couple tests. Went home, tested again and this is what happened..................

I am so excited and nervous at the same time. This is my first pregnancy since the MC i had in May last year. I am worried that it will happen again.

So today, I am 4+1 and due May 31, 2013.

Bring on the Hormones!

I'm out this cycle.
On to cycle 34.

I am sitting here on CD 3, getting a little nervous about what is going to start in 2 days. In 2 days I will begin taking clomid for the first time. I am also excited as I'm not sure what is in store this cycle.

I know that clomid can alter your moods, but I have no idea how much it will affect me. I have been having spurts of bad mood lately, so I feel that there is a strong possibility that I just may rip someones face off. I guess I should give some people a forewarning.

I am also trying to figure out the job part of my life. I'm starting to not be so happy where I am, but it is hard to give it up. It pays decent, and has paid vacation and benefits. I had an interview somewhere else, pays less which I'm fine with, has benefits as well, but may only be part time to start. I don't think that is something J and I can handle right now financial wise, but it's hard to weight happiness over money.

Apprehensive, Worried.....

...... Nervous!


Yup, have to say that I am a lot more nervous than I thought I was going to be. In just under 12 hours is my fertility appointment. I have no idea what to expect. I have no idea if anything will happen. Will she decide right then that I am eligible to take clomid or femara? Will she want to do more tests for my PCOS? Will she decide that I have to lose more weight before she will help?


ACK! I just dont know....I hope I will get some sleep tonight!