7th Week Update

Today I am 7+2.

Not too much to update really.
I got the phone call from the hospital about my ultrasound, which will be on November 1. I will be 9+6 on that day.

It is going to be a very nerve racking time until then. I think weeks 8-10 will be the worst, because of my last pregnancy going horrible during this time.

I still haven't heard from the Midwives, which I should have by Tuesday. I guess I will call on Monday.

My boobs are getting worse, which is making sleeping more difficult. Nausea was going away, but seems to be creeping back. I think it just depends on the day. I am having aversion to some foods. My husband made a fried egg the other day, and the smell of it made me want to throw up!!! Tonight I made pot roast in the slow cooker  and went to have a nap when it was cooking. The smell of it when I was waking up was not pleasant  It tasted fine, just smelled yucky! I am definitely sleeping more. All I have wanted to do is take a nape all weekend, so I did :) A new thing now is that I am hungry like every 3 hours. This is not good because I was hoping to gain very little weight, as I am plus size already, but at this rate I will be huge!

5 Weeks Update

Today I am 5+2 pregnant. My plan is to these updates each week on Friday when my week turns over, but you know....life kinda gets in the way.
Here is an update of my 5th week of pregnancy.

I told my husband, along with my mother I was pregnant when I was 4 weeks. I told my mom right away because when I had the MC last year, she told me no matter what she wants to know when I am pregnant again, so she can be there for me if needed.

I have felt nauseous this last week, mostly once I got to work, which is about 2 hours after getting up. 

I am crampy, but nothing bad. Feels almost like someone has a bunch of ropes attached to my insides, and they are being pulled; sometimes all at once, sometimes at random times.

I've had heartburn for years already, so this is not new to me. What seems different is that it seems like the heartburn has been travelling more north than before. There are times when I am feeling the burn more in my throat instead of just my chest.

My boobs hurt! Not as much as I thought they would, which I am uber thankful for. My nipples always hurt, but the boobs really only hurt when I take my bra off. Stairs + no bra = NO FUN!

I cant sleep properly. Sleep for a few hours, then up for a while, then sleep, then up, then sleep.....etc etc. It has made the 12 hour work days seem extra long.

I am slightly constipated. I can still go, but definitely not as often as normal. I get crampy for a couple days until I am able to. It is a very uncomfortable feeling.

I'm craving pickles. I know I know, so cliche!! But I cant get enough of them. I could probably eat a whole jar. Last year all I wanted was grilled cheese sandwiches.

I am looking at these symptoms as a good thing. So is J
My last pregnancy, besides the cravings, I felt much of nothing. I don't remember being uncomfortable at all. Maybe the last pregnancy was doomed from the moment it started. 

Overdue Update

I have been a bad blogger, and have not been able to find the time to sit and write. It probably doesn't help that my computer has been in for repair for a week now UGH!! but that is another story.

Now for my TTC update.
For about just over a week now, while at work I have been feeling just... off.
At work, I have been feeling a little sick. Not like I was going to vomit or anything, but just not well. My heartburn was also worse than normal.

By the time I get home from work (after working 12 hours) I used to be able to stay up a good 2 hours before going to bed. Lately, I get home and within 45 minutes I am crashing on the couch. I go to bed, and can only sleep for 2 hours at a time, then up for 30-45 minutes, then sleep for another 2 hours. This was really making working 12 hours difficult.

On CD27 - 12dpo, my BBT temp plummeted from 36.87 to 36.48, and below the coverline. The next day the temp raised very very slightly, and my CM was tinged brown. At this point I accepted that my first cycle on clomid was a failure.

On CD29 - 14dpo, the day before AF was due, my temperature jumped right back up to 36.89. I didn't have any of my normal AF symptoms, like cramping, so I thought I would use a cheapie to test.

The test was very faint, but the line appeared right away.
I got dressed and drove to Shoppers immediately to get a couple tests. Went home, tested again and this is what happened..................

I am so excited and nervous at the same time. This is my first pregnancy since the MC i had in May last year. I am worried that it will happen again.

So today, I am 4+1 and due May 31, 2013.

Bring on the Hormones!

I'm out this cycle.
On to cycle 34.

I am sitting here on CD 3, getting a little nervous about what is going to start in 2 days. In 2 days I will begin taking clomid for the first time. I am also excited as I'm not sure what is in store this cycle.

I know that clomid can alter your moods, but I have no idea how much it will affect me. I have been having spurts of bad mood lately, so I feel that there is a strong possibility that I just may rip someones face off. I guess I should give some people a forewarning.

I am also trying to figure out the job part of my life. I'm starting to not be so happy where I am, but it is hard to give it up. It pays decent, and has paid vacation and benefits. I had an interview somewhere else, pays less which I'm fine with, has benefits as well, but may only be part time to start. I don't think that is something J and I can handle right now financial wise, but it's hard to weight happiness over money.

Losing My Sanity, One Trip to the Bathroom at a Time

Now I remember how I have been able to keep my sanity over these last 3 years of TTC!!!!

DONT KEEP HPTS IN THE HOUSE!!!!!

UGH! I am driving myself crazy thinking about testing every day!
I have already POAS twice this week, which is just silliness. Right now I am sitting at 13dpo. Last time I had a BFP, I had a negative at 14dpo, and didn't have a positive until 19dpo, and even then on the cheapie it was weak.

BFP from March 2011 cycle

Much of Nothing in the TWW

Not much really to update right now....just hanging out in the two week wait....just waiting for AF to come, or preferably not come.

Looking at my past charts, I have learned that I need to track a little better. There are days that I didn't track when I took my meds, didn't track when we had sex..... le sigh

my chart seemed to do something this cycle that it has never done before. There is a significant jump on 9 and 10 dpo. Could be something hopeful, could just be some odd luck. Until about CD 32 or later, I'm not getting my hopes up.

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/kishar/?i=4844917&

OMG OPK!

I decided to use a bunch of OPKs this cycle, so I can actually determine if they work properly for me, and if I am ovulating on my own.

This picture is from CD 8 (right) every day to CD 17 (left). You can clearly see that I had a definite positive!!! :) This matched with my BBT results, and CM, I ovulated on CD 17.

I'm not super hopeful for this cycle, as things came up, and the last time we tried was on CD 15. I am happy that OPKs work for me though.

A to Z of TTC

A. Age when you started TTC: 25

B. Baby Dancing or Sex: Depends on what day of the cycle it is ;)

C. Children wanted: 3...but at this point I will be happy with 1

D. Dogs/Cats/Fill in Children: 1 dog, 2 cats

E. Essential Oils/Vitamins/Snake Oils: tried taking Soy, currerntly just prenatals

F. Fertility Meds I’ve taken: Metformin, and starting clomid next cycle

G. Gain: ummm weight....unfortunately. The joys of PCOS

H. HSG (Hystosalpingogram): not yet, but in the cards if not pregnant by December

I. Infertile Pet Peeves: How people act like it is so easy

J. Job title: Customer Care Representative

K. Kid’s names you’re afraid will be taken by the time you can use them: why would I mention them if I dont want them taken?

L. Length of time TTC: since July 2009 - almost 37 months

M. Miscarriages: 1 MMC, 1 possible Chemical

N. Number of times you’ve switched OB/GYNS, REs, FSs: I have just met my first FS. Unless I want to drive to another city 2 hours+ away, I wont be.

O. Ovarian quality: Cysty

P. POAS or wait for AF: Wait for AF, most of the time

Q. Quote from an obnoxious fertile: "just dont think about it and it will happen" Hard not to think about it when people are always asking about it.

S. Sperm: Great!

T. Time you tried naturally: 18 months

U. Uterus quality: as far as I know ok...never been tested

V. Vagina: Labia! Oh I thought we were naming parts here.

W. What baby stuff do you already have?: Way more than I should. Stroller, cloth diapers, diaper bag, clothes

X. X-tra X-tra Hear all about it! How many people know the ins and outs of our crazy TTC journey? Parents, Inlaws, sister, a couple friends

Y. Yearly Exam: The thing I acutally only have to go to once every 3 years, but somehow end up getting every year...

Z. Zits: never ever ever ever got zits on my face until I stopped taking BCP.... Le Sigh!

$100.00 Baby

I was way more nervous about my appointment than I had to be.


I got there about 220pm for my 230pm appointment. I expected to sit in the waiting room for a long time, but was called back within 5minutes.
I sat in the actual room until about 250, when not my actual Fertility doctor came in, but a resident. This didn't really bother me, as I seem to always see a resident for something. She was uber nice, and easy to talk to, and didn't even mention my weight which I thought would be an issue.


We started by her getting some of my background information; how long have we been TTC, are my cycles normal, has J had a sperm analysis, etc etc etc. It would have probably been a good thing if my family doctor had forwarded a little more information over besides my referral letter, basic blood work and that I have PCOS. The clinic didn't even know how I was diagnosed with PCOS.


After our talk, having a full exam, and pap, and the fact that my cycles are actually pretty regular, her and the my Fertility doctor decided that going on Clomid would be the best for me! :)


I went and picked up my prescription, which has cost me $100.00 for three months, as well as my Rx for Metformin (which my doctor only gave me one months worth which makes no sense). I am on CD11 right now, so I just missed out on using it this cycle. The plan is for the next cycle, to take 50mg on CD 5-9, and to make sure we do what needs to be done on CD12 - 20. On CD 24, I am to go back to the clinic and have blood work to check my progesterone levels; to make sure that I actually ovulated.


If I don't get my period by CD40, I am supposed to take a HPT - who the heck is going to wait till CD40....really??!???!. If I get a negative, then I call the clinic to see if I in fact ovulated. If I ovulated, then I try again with the 50mg, If I didn't ovulate, then I try the next cycle with 100mg.


I have an appointment in December to follow up if the Clomid doesn't work for me and if I end up not ovulating. At that point they will see if there are other issues, like blocked tubes etc.


I hope in the next 3 cycles this works out for me!!! A $100.00 baby will definitely be worth it!!!

Throw Away the Birth Control

I got married to my husband, J, on June 27, 2009. After our honeymoon in July, we decided to throw away the birth control and jump on the TTC wagon. At this point we had already been together 6.5 years, and the timing felt right.
Pretty much from the get go I started tracking my BBT. In the beginning my cycles were pretty average, 28-30 days long, and I thought "Perfect!! I should get pregnant in a few months no problem".

After a few cycles, I noticed a few symptoms. I had gained about 40lbs in 3 months, even though I had not changed my eating and exercise habits. I noticed that I was growing more facial hair above my lips, started getting skin tags, and my cycles were gradually getting longer and longer.

January 2010, on day 34 of my cycle, I decided to test .... BFN. Day 42.... BFN. Day 53....BFN. Day 57....BFN. Day 69....BFN. 
On day 71 of this cycle, after 3 days of spotting, I got a very very faint BFP. It was so faint, to this day somethings I wonder if I did see anything at all. I also wonder if it was actually a chemical pregnancy....to this day I don't know 100% for sure. 
Finally after 74 days, AF had arrived. She hung out for a while. She was like that annoying houseguest that wont leave.....for 54 DAYS!!!! I knew something was not right. That is a long time to go without AF, and then a long time to go with it. It was time for me to see the doctor.

In May 2010, a few ultrasounds, and some viles of blood determined that I had Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome with Insulin Resistance. I now had an answer, but was worried that this meant an even longer road ahead for me. I was convinced that I would become pregnant in less than a year....and at this point 10 months had already passed.

Seven months later, and still no change. At this point I was put on 1000mg of metformin. I noticed by the second cycle that it had helped my cycles. They became more consistent and shorter (more like 32 days).

After 4 cycles of taking metformin, in April 2011, I FINALLY got my BFP!!!!
I was beyond excited that it had FINALLY happened for me! Family who had been waiting even longer than us to have children were ecstatic! They were all ready and excited for a new family member. I felt like everything had finally fallen into place.

At about 9.5 weeks, I noticed that I started spotting brown. Immediately I started to panic inside, but didn want to show that I was scared on the outside. After 2 days of this, and it starting to get a little heavier, I decided it was time to go to the hospital. I was there for 15 LOOOOONG hours, when I was finally told that I had a miscarriage, and the baby had only developed to 8 weeks. :(

It was hard to take, for me, J, and our families....but it was something we had to get past if we were going to continue to TTC.

Not much has gone on for me since then. A few months ago I went back to the doctor about getting a referral to see a Fertility Specialist. I assumed it would be at least a year wait, but fortunately for us, we have an appointment this Friday! I am hoping I am a candidate for clomid of femara. I feel like I have a chance to get pregnant if my body can ovulate.


Fingers Crossed!!!!!

Introduction

Hey blog world!

So here is where I introduce myself to the world....or to whoever is reading this....

My name is Kisha. 

I am 28 years old, married for 3 years but have been with my husband for 9.5.
We live in Ontario Canada.
We have been trying to conceive for 3 years.

We have been successful at getting pregnant once during this time, which ended in a miscarriage.
We struggle with infertility as I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrom (PCOS).

That is pretty much the short and sweet of it....I plan to write out a little more about our infertility history, and what is to come in the future in this blog....maybe some random off topic subjects, rants, what not....

Welcome :)